Thoughts of a Mad Man

"I have stood here before inside the pouring rain,
With the world turning circles running round my brain,
I guess I'm always hoping that you'll end this reign,
But its my destiny to be the king of pain"

Location: Cairo, Egypt

Wednesday, October 20, 2010

Death wishs & Death ways

Slit thy throat with thy sword

I've decided to work on the best way to begone from life. I found a very interesting website apparently I'm not the only "Mad Man" out there, and that the road have been well traveled by so many different travelers before me.

I'll read the the list thoroughly and decide on the best methods and post them back here. If you're interested in the topic or have any ideas, please don't hesitate to reply back to me.

Edited like 1hr late:

Quite a disappointment, typical suicide methods but I liked how he listed the dosage of each drug and the certainty of RIP, no fancy ways thou, no sweet sleeping potions or joyful elixirs, only a true alchemist would would understand what I'm looking for.

At least now I know that slitting one's wrists will not work and probably just causes injury and that slitting throats needs to be done deeply and not superficial since the artery is protected at the back of something? (I'm not a doctor so I already forgot the anatomy, maybe I should consult a doctor?)

The idea of sky diving or scuba diving accidents are not bad, but too much trouble. Death by a thousand cut sounds interesting, I wonder why the author claims its originally Arabian would be fun to dig up its history.

For those of you who doesn't know about it, I'll paste it here from the website: 

"This is a modern variant of the Arabic 'Death of a thousand cuts'. Basically, jump onto a stack of unravelled razor wire, and roll around till you die.. it may help to connect a high- voltage, low current power supply to the wire, so that you have spasms, which should keep you getting cut even when you are unconscious. Also, you should make sure that you can't roll off the wire."

So I'll keep searching and will keep you guys updated with the coolest methods and which one of them I've decided on.

Edited on 29th of October:

The black moods still strikes, I'm set in my resolve I'm waiting for a specific action to start the count down of my life. I've decided on a 2 weeks notice period in this life.

I'll make a party at my house invite all my friends for a celebration feast, thank all of them in person, then I'll travel to upper Egypt to visit my father's family, say my good byes to them, then I'll return home and do it.

I'm still haven't decided upon the method but an OD of something sounds good and easy enough to do.

May the lord have mercy on my soul. 

Fortune, fame, mirror vain, gone insane but the memory remains....